LOVE:
Yesterday I has having a very bad day. My asthma was kicking up and when it does that sometimes I steals my brain cells by starving me of oxygen and it does it in such a sneaky way that I don't realize it until I hit a critical mass! So yesterday I was feeling very stupid, just couldn't get anything to stick in my brain. So finally at around 5:30pm I realized what was going on. Doh! It made the rest of my day much better.
GOAL:
Same goal as ever get a job in the oil and gas sector that I am based out of New Orleans, and every day I get to design systems and products to save lives with a supportive boss who promotes lifelong learning!
Personally, I want to be inspirational to everyone I meet! I want to be that person that uplifts others and makes their day a little brighter!
INVENTORY:
Self care as far as diet goes has been great, but exercise, horrible. For some reason I am having a huge sticking point about getting into the gym. I just don't want to do it. This morning is a classic example. I want to go row, but I don't want to make the effort to go to the gym to do it. It is just an excuse, but I can't seem to shake it. So for now I am sitting with it and letting it process. But this is another of those things that I want to turn over to the divine, I need help with the motivation, desire, drive to get back into the gym.
I did help out a friend yesterday and truly felt like I was able to put my skills to work for him and make a difference in his life!
MOTIVATION:
I realized this morning something. Even though I have read this book and know that leadership is about doing your best in everything, I still have this belief that I have to do something huge, amazing and over the top for my thesis. I don't and I do. I don't need to make that the only thing of import I do, but I do need to make a heroic effort at everything. Good reminder for me. And a request to turn that over to the divine so I can keep that in mind in all things I do.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Monday, May 2, 2011
2 May 2011
I don't know what it was last night but I kept waking up with night terrors. They are never specific and usually if I focus on one terror to the point where I calm myself down about it, it morphs into a different terror. So last night I tried something new. Every time I had a bad thought I would meditate on "The divine always loves me unconditionally, and routinely brings miracles into my life. This allows me to be inspirational to those around me." And it worked. Not perfect, but it stopped cold the terrors. I still couldn't get to sleep, but meditating on divine love and how it helps me to reach my goals, not a bad way to spend a sleepless night.
LOVE: So today it was divine love always loving me unconditionally, and routinely bringing miracles into my life. Those are wonderful things to meditate on and the calm it brings is so worth it!
GOAL: It has been a few days since I last posted my career goal in it's entirety. But here it is again. I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector saving lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
Personally, I want to be inspirational to those around me. I want to help everyone who wishes it to be the best person they can be. Not be the best, but the best they can be. There was a great conversation last night about education. It should never be about across the board standards, but standards for each individual child. This is also what the Jesuits teach in their schools. They see the divinity in each child and help to bring that child to their fullest potential. There is no success or failure in that system, other than did the child achieve all s/he could achieve? If the child didn't how did the educators screw up to prevent that child from reaching their full potential. It is NEVER the child's fault. NEVER!
INVENTORY:
I am so very proud of myself. On Friday night I was seriously craving potato chips, I have some sitting on my counter from before. I have been really good all week about staying away from carbs and sticking to the diet. And I did it again on Friday. I fixed myself a salad and some protein and stuck with it!
This weekend was a friend's birthday and I made home made ice cream and we went out to and Italian restaurant. No way to stay away from the carbs. I didn't but I enjoyed the meal and did a good job of food choices. Sunday I kinda fell of the wagon, but that was mostly expected too. I need to find a low carb alternative to biscuits and gravy. I love the gravy too much to give it up all together, so I am going to have to figure that one out!
But this post is about successes! I did good on Friday, and this weekend was expected and this week I am back on the diet and taking care of myself! Last night was about a success as well. I was able to deal with the night terrors in a way that made the morning a joy instead of a dread! YEAH! And finally, I am celebrating my successes, which is a huge win for me!
MOTIVATION:
I got one reply to my Facebook post about how do you tell the difference between an all out effort and just a good effort. It was "When it takes every bit of your mental capacity to 'get there'." Which is enough of an answer for me. What that means is that I routinely go above and beyond. When I am having an off day I don't do that, but most often I do. There is something in me that says if I haven't given ever bit of who I am to the effort, I haven't given enough and I will beat myself up. So this has been an excellent exercise for me. I always have the motivation. This one isn't something I need to focus on. My internal guidance will always result in an over the top effort. It is good to know and it is nice to know that even when I feel like I haven't given enough, I am still doing exactly what needs to be done. I just am not going above and beyond.
LOVE: So today it was divine love always loving me unconditionally, and routinely bringing miracles into my life. Those are wonderful things to meditate on and the calm it brings is so worth it!
GOAL: It has been a few days since I last posted my career goal in it's entirety. But here it is again. I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector saving lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
Personally, I want to be inspirational to those around me. I want to help everyone who wishes it to be the best person they can be. Not be the best, but the best they can be. There was a great conversation last night about education. It should never be about across the board standards, but standards for each individual child. This is also what the Jesuits teach in their schools. They see the divinity in each child and help to bring that child to their fullest potential. There is no success or failure in that system, other than did the child achieve all s/he could achieve? If the child didn't how did the educators screw up to prevent that child from reaching their full potential. It is NEVER the child's fault. NEVER!
INVENTORY:
I am so very proud of myself. On Friday night I was seriously craving potato chips, I have some sitting on my counter from before. I have been really good all week about staying away from carbs and sticking to the diet. And I did it again on Friday. I fixed myself a salad and some protein and stuck with it!
This weekend was a friend's birthday and I made home made ice cream and we went out to and Italian restaurant. No way to stay away from the carbs. I didn't but I enjoyed the meal and did a good job of food choices. Sunday I kinda fell of the wagon, but that was mostly expected too. I need to find a low carb alternative to biscuits and gravy. I love the gravy too much to give it up all together, so I am going to have to figure that one out!
But this post is about successes! I did good on Friday, and this weekend was expected and this week I am back on the diet and taking care of myself! Last night was about a success as well. I was able to deal with the night terrors in a way that made the morning a joy instead of a dread! YEAH! And finally, I am celebrating my successes, which is a huge win for me!
MOTIVATION:
I got one reply to my Facebook post about how do you tell the difference between an all out effort and just a good effort. It was "When it takes every bit of your mental capacity to 'get there'." Which is enough of an answer for me. What that means is that I routinely go above and beyond. When I am having an off day I don't do that, but most often I do. There is something in me that says if I haven't given ever bit of who I am to the effort, I haven't given enough and I will beat myself up. So this has been an excellent exercise for me. I always have the motivation. This one isn't something I need to focus on. My internal guidance will always result in an over the top effort. It is good to know and it is nice to know that even when I feel like I haven't given enough, I am still doing exactly what needs to be done. I just am not going above and beyond.
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