Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Success!!!
GOAL: It has been a long while since I have posted here, but I have been keeping mostly on top of my daily meditations at least. And last week the meditations paid of BIG time!!! I got the job of my dreams in New Orleans, after accepting a position in Houston. I had made my peace with the fact that I wasn't getting what I had hoped for and the company called me after I had accepted the offer to tell me they had found a position for me in New Orleans and would I be willing to take the position. HECK YEAH!!! So for me, this is a dream come true and a confirmation that this stuff really does work! Even when it appeared that I would be moving to Houston I still believed that this meditation works and is worthwhile. Now I know it is amazing and it has made a believer out of me! So my next big task is to come up with a new goal to set my sights on! Part of it is to get back in shape which includes eating right and getting down to a weight that looks good on me. Which has less to do with the scale and more to do with my workouts! So I think although this has been a goal for a little over a month now, I need to formalize it. I will get back to you on what the exact wording of the goal will be. Let me think on it....
Thursday, May 5, 2011
5 May 2011
LOVE:
Yesterday I has having a very bad day. My asthma was kicking up and when it does that sometimes I steals my brain cells by starving me of oxygen and it does it in such a sneaky way that I don't realize it until I hit a critical mass! So yesterday I was feeling very stupid, just couldn't get anything to stick in my brain. So finally at around 5:30pm I realized what was going on. Doh! It made the rest of my day much better.
GOAL:
Same goal as ever get a job in the oil and gas sector that I am based out of New Orleans, and every day I get to design systems and products to save lives with a supportive boss who promotes lifelong learning!
Personally, I want to be inspirational to everyone I meet! I want to be that person that uplifts others and makes their day a little brighter!
INVENTORY:
Self care as far as diet goes has been great, but exercise, horrible. For some reason I am having a huge sticking point about getting into the gym. I just don't want to do it. This morning is a classic example. I want to go row, but I don't want to make the effort to go to the gym to do it. It is just an excuse, but I can't seem to shake it. So for now I am sitting with it and letting it process. But this is another of those things that I want to turn over to the divine, I need help with the motivation, desire, drive to get back into the gym.
I did help out a friend yesterday and truly felt like I was able to put my skills to work for him and make a difference in his life!
MOTIVATION:
I realized this morning something. Even though I have read this book and know that leadership is about doing your best in everything, I still have this belief that I have to do something huge, amazing and over the top for my thesis. I don't and I do. I don't need to make that the only thing of import I do, but I do need to make a heroic effort at everything. Good reminder for me. And a request to turn that over to the divine so I can keep that in mind in all things I do.
Yesterday I has having a very bad day. My asthma was kicking up and when it does that sometimes I steals my brain cells by starving me of oxygen and it does it in such a sneaky way that I don't realize it until I hit a critical mass! So yesterday I was feeling very stupid, just couldn't get anything to stick in my brain. So finally at around 5:30pm I realized what was going on. Doh! It made the rest of my day much better.
GOAL:
Same goal as ever get a job in the oil and gas sector that I am based out of New Orleans, and every day I get to design systems and products to save lives with a supportive boss who promotes lifelong learning!
Personally, I want to be inspirational to everyone I meet! I want to be that person that uplifts others and makes their day a little brighter!
INVENTORY:
Self care as far as diet goes has been great, but exercise, horrible. For some reason I am having a huge sticking point about getting into the gym. I just don't want to do it. This morning is a classic example. I want to go row, but I don't want to make the effort to go to the gym to do it. It is just an excuse, but I can't seem to shake it. So for now I am sitting with it and letting it process. But this is another of those things that I want to turn over to the divine, I need help with the motivation, desire, drive to get back into the gym.
I did help out a friend yesterday and truly felt like I was able to put my skills to work for him and make a difference in his life!
MOTIVATION:
I realized this morning something. Even though I have read this book and know that leadership is about doing your best in everything, I still have this belief that I have to do something huge, amazing and over the top for my thesis. I don't and I do. I don't need to make that the only thing of import I do, but I do need to make a heroic effort at everything. Good reminder for me. And a request to turn that over to the divine so I can keep that in mind in all things I do.
Monday, May 2, 2011
2 May 2011
I don't know what it was last night but I kept waking up with night terrors. They are never specific and usually if I focus on one terror to the point where I calm myself down about it, it morphs into a different terror. So last night I tried something new. Every time I had a bad thought I would meditate on "The divine always loves me unconditionally, and routinely brings miracles into my life. This allows me to be inspirational to those around me." And it worked. Not perfect, but it stopped cold the terrors. I still couldn't get to sleep, but meditating on divine love and how it helps me to reach my goals, not a bad way to spend a sleepless night.
LOVE: So today it was divine love always loving me unconditionally, and routinely bringing miracles into my life. Those are wonderful things to meditate on and the calm it brings is so worth it!
GOAL: It has been a few days since I last posted my career goal in it's entirety. But here it is again. I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector saving lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
Personally, I want to be inspirational to those around me. I want to help everyone who wishes it to be the best person they can be. Not be the best, but the best they can be. There was a great conversation last night about education. It should never be about across the board standards, but standards for each individual child. This is also what the Jesuits teach in their schools. They see the divinity in each child and help to bring that child to their fullest potential. There is no success or failure in that system, other than did the child achieve all s/he could achieve? If the child didn't how did the educators screw up to prevent that child from reaching their full potential. It is NEVER the child's fault. NEVER!
INVENTORY:
I am so very proud of myself. On Friday night I was seriously craving potato chips, I have some sitting on my counter from before. I have been really good all week about staying away from carbs and sticking to the diet. And I did it again on Friday. I fixed myself a salad and some protein and stuck with it!
This weekend was a friend's birthday and I made home made ice cream and we went out to and Italian restaurant. No way to stay away from the carbs. I didn't but I enjoyed the meal and did a good job of food choices. Sunday I kinda fell of the wagon, but that was mostly expected too. I need to find a low carb alternative to biscuits and gravy. I love the gravy too much to give it up all together, so I am going to have to figure that one out!
But this post is about successes! I did good on Friday, and this weekend was expected and this week I am back on the diet and taking care of myself! Last night was about a success as well. I was able to deal with the night terrors in a way that made the morning a joy instead of a dread! YEAH! And finally, I am celebrating my successes, which is a huge win for me!
MOTIVATION:
I got one reply to my Facebook post about how do you tell the difference between an all out effort and just a good effort. It was "When it takes every bit of your mental capacity to 'get there'." Which is enough of an answer for me. What that means is that I routinely go above and beyond. When I am having an off day I don't do that, but most often I do. There is something in me that says if I haven't given ever bit of who I am to the effort, I haven't given enough and I will beat myself up. So this has been an excellent exercise for me. I always have the motivation. This one isn't something I need to focus on. My internal guidance will always result in an over the top effort. It is good to know and it is nice to know that even when I feel like I haven't given enough, I am still doing exactly what needs to be done. I just am not going above and beyond.
LOVE: So today it was divine love always loving me unconditionally, and routinely bringing miracles into my life. Those are wonderful things to meditate on and the calm it brings is so worth it!
GOAL: It has been a few days since I last posted my career goal in it's entirety. But here it is again. I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector saving lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
Personally, I want to be inspirational to those around me. I want to help everyone who wishes it to be the best person they can be. Not be the best, but the best they can be. There was a great conversation last night about education. It should never be about across the board standards, but standards for each individual child. This is also what the Jesuits teach in their schools. They see the divinity in each child and help to bring that child to their fullest potential. There is no success or failure in that system, other than did the child achieve all s/he could achieve? If the child didn't how did the educators screw up to prevent that child from reaching their full potential. It is NEVER the child's fault. NEVER!
INVENTORY:
I am so very proud of myself. On Friday night I was seriously craving potato chips, I have some sitting on my counter from before. I have been really good all week about staying away from carbs and sticking to the diet. And I did it again on Friday. I fixed myself a salad and some protein and stuck with it!
This weekend was a friend's birthday and I made home made ice cream and we went out to and Italian restaurant. No way to stay away from the carbs. I didn't but I enjoyed the meal and did a good job of food choices. Sunday I kinda fell of the wagon, but that was mostly expected too. I need to find a low carb alternative to biscuits and gravy. I love the gravy too much to give it up all together, so I am going to have to figure that one out!
But this post is about successes! I did good on Friday, and this weekend was expected and this week I am back on the diet and taking care of myself! Last night was about a success as well. I was able to deal with the night terrors in a way that made the morning a joy instead of a dread! YEAH! And finally, I am celebrating my successes, which is a huge win for me!
MOTIVATION:
I got one reply to my Facebook post about how do you tell the difference between an all out effort and just a good effort. It was "When it takes every bit of your mental capacity to 'get there'." Which is enough of an answer for me. What that means is that I routinely go above and beyond. When I am having an off day I don't do that, but most often I do. There is something in me that says if I haven't given ever bit of who I am to the effort, I haven't given enough and I will beat myself up. So this has been an excellent exercise for me. I always have the motivation. This one isn't something I need to focus on. My internal guidance will always result in an over the top effort. It is good to know and it is nice to know that even when I feel like I haven't given enough, I am still doing exactly what needs to be done. I just am not going above and beyond.
Friday, April 29, 2011
29 April 2011
This is all about inventory and turning stuff over. I am literally making myself sick over this quiz I have today that is worth 1% of my grade. In a class where I most assuredly have a mid to high B. So 1% isn't going to kill me, but my stomach is upset and I am in a really foul mood because of this.
I am paying $1000's of dollars for this education and this damn teacher isn't teaching and it is pissing me off. But really that isn't what is at the bottom of this issue. The bottom of this issue is I am convinced really convinced that because I am not getting this from reference material (I missed most of the lectures) I think it means I am stupid. And I think that if I am stupid somehow that is wrapped up in me not being loveable. That is if I am stupid there is nothing worth loving about me. As if my intelligence is the only thing loveable about me. I can't make this right in my head. I can't explain or convince or trick my head into thinking this isn't so. It just is a fact of life, like my previous belief about being a failure and never winning. I truly wish this "defect" this aberrant thought pattern would be something the divine will take on and help me with. I can't do this one on my own.
A good reminder right about now is that I am always loved unconditionally by the divine warts, and all. All I have to do is open my heart to know that it is true!
I am paying $1000's of dollars for this education and this damn teacher isn't teaching and it is pissing me off. But really that isn't what is at the bottom of this issue. The bottom of this issue is I am convinced really convinced that because I am not getting this from reference material (I missed most of the lectures) I think it means I am stupid. And I think that if I am stupid somehow that is wrapped up in me not being loveable. That is if I am stupid there is nothing worth loving about me. As if my intelligence is the only thing loveable about me. I can't make this right in my head. I can't explain or convince or trick my head into thinking this isn't so. It just is a fact of life, like my previous belief about being a failure and never winning. I truly wish this "defect" this aberrant thought pattern would be something the divine will take on and help me with. I can't do this one on my own.
A good reminder right about now is that I am always loved unconditionally by the divine warts, and all. All I have to do is open my heart to know that it is true!
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
27 April 2011
LOVE:
Reminding myself on a day to day basis that I am divinely loved and that I am lovable does so very much to help my self image. I am always loved...unconditionally!
GOAL:
BE INSPIRATIONAL!! That isn't really defined enough, but I am working on it. The last part of the book was about values, it says basically "This is who I am, this is what I stand for and this is what I want." The what I want is easy enough, as is the who I am. I am the sum of my experiences, but the what I stand for...that one is much more difficult. I am going to have to do some work on that. And figure out what I stand for. And what I will not accept.
Career goal is the same employed by August in New Orleans in the oil and gas industry working to save lives through reliability engineering.
INVENTORY:
I had a conversation with a friend last night about success and winning and it is hard for him to understand me because he doesn't view the world like I do, so while he gets the idea of perfection he hasn't ever judged himself to that standard. And as a result he is much more willing to take risks and has far fewer "attachments" It was a good conversation and I think that by focusing on it I will effect a change in my behavior and my thinking! I know the discussions and examination of my self care has made a huge impact on my outlook. I know it takes longer to plan my meals, and make sure that I am taking care of myself, but in the end I am better able to help/take care of others. So it is a win-win for me and for the achievement of my goals. Why would I ever do something that prevents me from reaching such lofty goals. And goals which I am passionate about.
MOTIVATION:
Going above and beyond, never accepting that adequate is good enough. I think part of the reason this is such a challenge for me as that I don't see the difference in doing and adequate job vs. doing an outstanding job. In my life, there has never been a benefit to doing an outstanding job. Other than it requires more energy and effort. But it is never recognized or appreciated, so why do it. I know that doing the exceptional is never about how others perceive it but about how it makes me feel. And maybe this is the issue...maybe I always am going above and beyond and don't recognize it because of my issues with success and winning. How does one define exceptional accomplishments vs. ordinary accomplishments. I actually don't have any idea. I am going to turn this one over to the divine, and ask them to show me what it feels like to achieve something extraordinary vs. something ordinary. Maybe that way I can get a handle on this.
Reminding myself on a day to day basis that I am divinely loved and that I am lovable does so very much to help my self image. I am always loved...unconditionally!
GOAL:
BE INSPIRATIONAL!! That isn't really defined enough, but I am working on it. The last part of the book was about values, it says basically "This is who I am, this is what I stand for and this is what I want." The what I want is easy enough, as is the who I am. I am the sum of my experiences, but the what I stand for...that one is much more difficult. I am going to have to do some work on that. And figure out what I stand for. And what I will not accept.
Career goal is the same employed by August in New Orleans in the oil and gas industry working to save lives through reliability engineering.
INVENTORY:
I had a conversation with a friend last night about success and winning and it is hard for him to understand me because he doesn't view the world like I do, so while he gets the idea of perfection he hasn't ever judged himself to that standard. And as a result he is much more willing to take risks and has far fewer "attachments" It was a good conversation and I think that by focusing on it I will effect a change in my behavior and my thinking! I know the discussions and examination of my self care has made a huge impact on my outlook. I know it takes longer to plan my meals, and make sure that I am taking care of myself, but in the end I am better able to help/take care of others. So it is a win-win for me and for the achievement of my goals. Why would I ever do something that prevents me from reaching such lofty goals. And goals which I am passionate about.
MOTIVATION:
Going above and beyond, never accepting that adequate is good enough. I think part of the reason this is such a challenge for me as that I don't see the difference in doing and adequate job vs. doing an outstanding job. In my life, there has never been a benefit to doing an outstanding job. Other than it requires more energy and effort. But it is never recognized or appreciated, so why do it. I know that doing the exceptional is never about how others perceive it but about how it makes me feel. And maybe this is the issue...maybe I always am going above and beyond and don't recognize it because of my issues with success and winning. How does one define exceptional accomplishments vs. ordinary accomplishments. I actually don't have any idea. I am going to turn this one over to the divine, and ask them to show me what it feels like to achieve something extraordinary vs. something ordinary. Maybe that way I can get a handle on this.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
26 April 2011
LOVE:
Being able to lean on the support of the divine is so very helpful because it takes a huge burden off of my chest that I have to be my own cheerleader because no one else will. I know I have divine cheerleaders and they are always there for me. They always see the best me. They know my strengths and weaknesses and love me anyway. They see me clearly when I don't see myself clearly!
GOAL:
I think I need to start including some personal goals as well as career goals in this section. I finally finished the book today and part of the goal section is no only career goals, although that was the focus of a book on leadership, but without personal goals part of my life is stagnant. So career wise by August 2011 I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
Personal wise: I am already doing this to some extent in my inventory. But personally, I am an inspiration to those around me to be the best they can be. I don't care if they are teachers, bosses, children, friends or enemies. I inspire everyone around me to be better today than they were yesterday.
INVENTORY:
Inventory time. Actually this is more about a realization. One of many today, but this one happened most recently so I am going to get it down on "paper". I talked yesterday about setting goals an then not presupposing the outcome. Well as a correlary to that the realization is that I don't see myself as successful or as a winner. I consider my success or failure against a perfect me. And of course when you do that you never achieve it, so you can never be a winner or successful. So the challenge is to reframe success and failure. I do this again and again and always forget it. Here is the issue I have. If you judge your successes or failures against what your best effort is which is what I hear often, then you will always come up short, because my best effort is that perfect me. So, in the scope of the gym I have to ask myself did I move toward my goals (personal, physical, spiritual, career, love, etc) or away from them. If I moved toward them then I have been a success today. I was a winner today. But my sticking point with that is that most days I will be a winner and that just doesn't make sense in my head. Winning and success are things that happen once or if you are lucky twice a year. Not something that happens 5-6 times a week. OK, for this one I know what to do. I need to turn this belief over to the divine. This idea that success is something that happens every day. This is the reality of life, not the messed up world I live in.
MOTIVATION:
The two goals dovetail (in my head anyway) into each other and be an inspiration is all I want to be. If I have done that, then I am going above and beyond and achieving beyond expectation!
Being able to lean on the support of the divine is so very helpful because it takes a huge burden off of my chest that I have to be my own cheerleader because no one else will. I know I have divine cheerleaders and they are always there for me. They always see the best me. They know my strengths and weaknesses and love me anyway. They see me clearly when I don't see myself clearly!
GOAL:
I think I need to start including some personal goals as well as career goals in this section. I finally finished the book today and part of the goal section is no only career goals, although that was the focus of a book on leadership, but without personal goals part of my life is stagnant. So career wise by August 2011 I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
Personal wise: I am already doing this to some extent in my inventory. But personally, I am an inspiration to those around me to be the best they can be. I don't care if they are teachers, bosses, children, friends or enemies. I inspire everyone around me to be better today than they were yesterday.
INVENTORY:
Inventory time. Actually this is more about a realization. One of many today, but this one happened most recently so I am going to get it down on "paper". I talked yesterday about setting goals an then not presupposing the outcome. Well as a correlary to that the realization is that I don't see myself as successful or as a winner. I consider my success or failure against a perfect me. And of course when you do that you never achieve it, so you can never be a winner or successful. So the challenge is to reframe success and failure. I do this again and again and always forget it. Here is the issue I have. If you judge your successes or failures against what your best effort is which is what I hear often, then you will always come up short, because my best effort is that perfect me. So, in the scope of the gym I have to ask myself did I move toward my goals (personal, physical, spiritual, career, love, etc) or away from them. If I moved toward them then I have been a success today. I was a winner today. But my sticking point with that is that most days I will be a winner and that just doesn't make sense in my head. Winning and success are things that happen once or if you are lucky twice a year. Not something that happens 5-6 times a week. OK, for this one I know what to do. I need to turn this belief over to the divine. This idea that success is something that happens every day. This is the reality of life, not the messed up world I live in.
MOTIVATION:
The two goals dovetail (in my head anyway) into each other and be an inspiration is all I want to be. If I have done that, then I am going above and beyond and achieving beyond expectation!
Monday, April 25, 2011
25 April 2011
LOVE:
Nothing to comment on this today. Just an awareness in the back of my mind that the divine's love is ever-present.
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
What happens when I achieve this goal? Have I set up this goal instead of setting the goal?
INVENTORY:
So I was thinking last night/this morning about setting goals and achieving those goals. I often will set a goal with a specific plan of how I am going to meet that goal and what the successful completion of the goal will look like. When I do that I do two things. I limit how I can complete the goal. That is if a better way to complete the goal gets dropped in my lap I will ignore it because I "know" the right way to achieve the goal. And second I set up internal limits for myself. I don't let life dictate how much I will accomplish, I don't allow for the possibility of blowing the goal out of the water by accomplishing something truly amazing because I have reframed the goal because of life experiences. So I will turn over this idea of setting up goals and just set general goals without having specifics in mind.
MOTIVATION:
Still struggling with this one and I am almost done with the book and still don't think I have any truly great answers. Looks like this one is going to have to come from within. Ugh...that means some serious meditation time on this topic! By next Monday I will have spent at least 60 minutes on this topic.
Nothing to comment on this today. Just an awareness in the back of my mind that the divine's love is ever-present.
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
What happens when I achieve this goal? Have I set up this goal instead of setting the goal?
INVENTORY:
So I was thinking last night/this morning about setting goals and achieving those goals. I often will set a goal with a specific plan of how I am going to meet that goal and what the successful completion of the goal will look like. When I do that I do two things. I limit how I can complete the goal. That is if a better way to complete the goal gets dropped in my lap I will ignore it because I "know" the right way to achieve the goal. And second I set up internal limits for myself. I don't let life dictate how much I will accomplish, I don't allow for the possibility of blowing the goal out of the water by accomplishing something truly amazing because I have reframed the goal because of life experiences. So I will turn over this idea of setting up goals and just set general goals without having specifics in mind.
MOTIVATION:
Still struggling with this one and I am almost done with the book and still don't think I have any truly great answers. Looks like this one is going to have to come from within. Ugh...that means some serious meditation time on this topic! By next Monday I will have spent at least 60 minutes on this topic.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
24 April 2011
LOVE:
I was posting to a high school classmate's Facebook page today and wished her a happy birthday and told her she looked fabulous, which she does! But I realized something. When I am connected with the divine and know that I am loved by them, I am able to be so much freer with my love and appreciation of others. I don't have to hoard what I have because I am afraid it is not going to be enough to sustain me. I know beyond a doubt that there is more where that came from. And even the concept that I get more love in my life when I give more out doesn't matter, that concept isn't motivating to me. The knowledge that I have enough to last a lifetime and beyond and giving love to others is a special gift only I can give makes me very, very happy! I am so very grateful that I am secure in the knowledge of the divine's love of me!
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
I spent some time yesterday working on this, thinking about this. Knowing that I am making a difference today right now even if it can't be seen or felt yet, I know that I am making a difference. Keeping my eyes on the prize is such an obvious cliche, but it makes all the little decisions so much easier. I think as I get into my summer research project I will be able to refine this goal a bit. But currently the task in front of me is to write a proposal to allow me to go offshore to visit several drilling rigs and production platforms and hopefully be exposed to the training the operators and maintainers of these systems receive. That will help so very much!
INVENTORY:
My inventory. I have never thought of my comments about others negative or positive as hurtful, or harmful, but I am thinking I need to pay attention, and see if I am doing any harm there. I don't believe I am, I believe I am simply expressing my opinion, but I have never looked at this. This is my inventory task, to see if this habit is preventing me from reaching my goals. I ate very well yesterday, had too many carbs, but I was with friends who were cooking for me, so I was a bit limited on my options and I didn't want to offend them! Besides it was all good homemade Iranian food! YUM!
MOTIVATION:
I struggle every day with this section. How to keep motivated to go above and beyond what is requested and provide something special. I don't know why this is such a challenge for me, but it really is. I am thinking I need to finish reading the book and focus on this part of the book so I can get a better handle on it. Ok, goal for today, get some reading done in the book!
I was posting to a high school classmate's Facebook page today and wished her a happy birthday and told her she looked fabulous, which she does! But I realized something. When I am connected with the divine and know that I am loved by them, I am able to be so much freer with my love and appreciation of others. I don't have to hoard what I have because I am afraid it is not going to be enough to sustain me. I know beyond a doubt that there is more where that came from. And even the concept that I get more love in my life when I give more out doesn't matter, that concept isn't motivating to me. The knowledge that I have enough to last a lifetime and beyond and giving love to others is a special gift only I can give makes me very, very happy! I am so very grateful that I am secure in the knowledge of the divine's love of me!
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
I spent some time yesterday working on this, thinking about this. Knowing that I am making a difference today right now even if it can't be seen or felt yet, I know that I am making a difference. Keeping my eyes on the prize is such an obvious cliche, but it makes all the little decisions so much easier. I think as I get into my summer research project I will be able to refine this goal a bit. But currently the task in front of me is to write a proposal to allow me to go offshore to visit several drilling rigs and production platforms and hopefully be exposed to the training the operators and maintainers of these systems receive. That will help so very much!
INVENTORY:
My inventory. I have never thought of my comments about others negative or positive as hurtful, or harmful, but I am thinking I need to pay attention, and see if I am doing any harm there. I don't believe I am, I believe I am simply expressing my opinion, but I have never looked at this. This is my inventory task, to see if this habit is preventing me from reaching my goals. I ate very well yesterday, had too many carbs, but I was with friends who were cooking for me, so I was a bit limited on my options and I didn't want to offend them! Besides it was all good homemade Iranian food! YUM!
MOTIVATION:
I struggle every day with this section. How to keep motivated to go above and beyond what is requested and provide something special. I don't know why this is such a challenge for me, but it really is. I am thinking I need to finish reading the book and focus on this part of the book so I can get a better handle on it. Ok, goal for today, get some reading done in the book!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
23 April 2011
LOVE:
This one was in the back of my mind all day yesterday, which is a good thing. I like getting to the point where it isn't something I have to work at to realize. When I get there I can relax into life and trust. I can let go of stress and worry and know that everything, good and bad happens for my own best growth and education and development. And it is part of what makes me who I am.
This morning there was this in my inbox:
Let go of resentments
Resentments are sneaky, tricky little things. They can convince us they're justified. They can dry up our hearts. They can sabotage our happiness. They can sabotage love.
Most of us have been at the receiving end of an injustice at some time in our lives. Most of us know someone who's complained of an injustice we've done to him or her. Life can be a breeding ground for resentments, if we let it.
"Yes, but this time I really was wronged," we complain.
Maybe you were. But harboring resentment isn't the solution. If it were, our resentment list would resemble the Los Angeles telephone directory. Deal with your feelings. Learn whatever lesson is at hand. Then let the feelings go.
Resentments are a coping behavior, a tool of someone settling for survival in life. They're a form or revenge. The problem is, no matter whom we're resenting, the anger is ultimately directed against ourselves.
Take a moment. Search your heart. Have you tricked yourself into harboring resentment? If you have, take another moment and let that resentment go.
God, grant me the serenity that acceptance brings. ~Melody Beattie
There is a huge message in there for me.
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
The value of having a goal was shown to me yesterday. I was meeting with my thesis adviser and discussing a new project and was able to stay on target like I haven't been able to do before because I know that saving lives and property is the end goal in mind. It keeps the miscellaneous stuff from distracting me and allows me to really stay on target. But goals are a tricky thing. I have set workout goals and they seem to come and go depending on the workout environment. So there is something about setting them and there is also something about holding yourself accountable to the goals you set. Still have to work on how that all plays out.
Maybe it is time to set Crossfit goals here too. I will have to think about that.
INVENTORY:
My self care was good yesterday I ate well except for the meal I shared with Reza and Azi and I couldn't not take them up on the meal, and it was an excellent Iranian "fast food" meal! It was a decision I made rather than just eating what I was craving, or just eating something because I was hungry. Planning meals always works out better for me! Part of self care and working on that!
Now, the resentment quote. This is one I need to turn over to the divine. I can't let go of the resentment toward my mom without some extra help! And it definitely is holding me back. With her and with my life. It will trip me up and prevent me from reaching my goals, not acceptable!
MOTIVATION:
Not feeling particularly motivated today, not unmotivated, just have my head down and slogging through the shite. Going beyond to achieve the impossible with the tasks sitting in front of me doesn't seem likely today, but maybe! Maybe...
This one was in the back of my mind all day yesterday, which is a good thing. I like getting to the point where it isn't something I have to work at to realize. When I get there I can relax into life and trust. I can let go of stress and worry and know that everything, good and bad happens for my own best growth and education and development. And it is part of what makes me who I am.
This morning there was this in my inbox:
Let go of resentments
Resentments are sneaky, tricky little things. They can convince us they're justified. They can dry up our hearts. They can sabotage our happiness. They can sabotage love.
Most of us have been at the receiving end of an injustice at some time in our lives. Most of us know someone who's complained of an injustice we've done to him or her. Life can be a breeding ground for resentments, if we let it.
"Yes, but this time I really was wronged," we complain.
Maybe you were. But harboring resentment isn't the solution. If it were, our resentment list would resemble the Los Angeles telephone directory. Deal with your feelings. Learn whatever lesson is at hand. Then let the feelings go.
Resentments are a coping behavior, a tool of someone settling for survival in life. They're a form or revenge. The problem is, no matter whom we're resenting, the anger is ultimately directed against ourselves.
Take a moment. Search your heart. Have you tricked yourself into harboring resentment? If you have, take another moment and let that resentment go.
God, grant me the serenity that acceptance brings. ~Melody Beattie
There is a huge message in there for me.
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.
The value of having a goal was shown to me yesterday. I was meeting with my thesis adviser and discussing a new project and was able to stay on target like I haven't been able to do before because I know that saving lives and property is the end goal in mind. It keeps the miscellaneous stuff from distracting me and allows me to really stay on target. But goals are a tricky thing. I have set workout goals and they seem to come and go depending on the workout environment. So there is something about setting them and there is also something about holding yourself accountable to the goals you set. Still have to work on how that all plays out.
Maybe it is time to set Crossfit goals here too. I will have to think about that.
INVENTORY:
My self care was good yesterday I ate well except for the meal I shared with Reza and Azi and I couldn't not take them up on the meal, and it was an excellent Iranian "fast food" meal! It was a decision I made rather than just eating what I was craving, or just eating something because I was hungry. Planning meals always works out better for me! Part of self care and working on that!
Now, the resentment quote. This is one I need to turn over to the divine. I can't let go of the resentment toward my mom without some extra help! And it definitely is holding me back. With her and with my life. It will trip me up and prevent me from reaching my goals, not acceptable!
MOTIVATION:
Not feeling particularly motivated today, not unmotivated, just have my head down and slogging through the shite. Going beyond to achieve the impossible with the tasks sitting in front of me doesn't seem likely today, but maybe! Maybe...
Thursday, April 21, 2011
21 April 2011
LOVE:
I am in need of the reminder to meditate on divine love today. I got bitched out by my boyfriend's landlord about my cats. He said some pretty hateful things, so of which were true and some of which were not. Me and my cats didn't single-handedly cost him a tenant. Yes the litter box stinks and yes this is almost the end of the month and showing the place with the cats isn't the premium solution but I didn't plan spring break just to fuck him over as he so eloquently put it. So remembering that the divine loves me no matter what is helping to keep some kind of equilibrium in my head about this.
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning. Some little tweaking here and there. But I am thinking this is what would be perfect. Hopefully I am being specific enough and yet general enough as well. Setting goals is always dicey, you can meet your goal and still fall far short of what was in your head to begin with!
INVENTORY:
I think I actually did a pretty good job of sticking up for myself with the landlord yesterday even in the face of a pretty brutal attack. Today I took steps to rectify the situation as best I can with my cats still down here for another day. I truly feel like I have handled the situation as well as I could have. Other than coming up with something witty and appropriate to say in the face of that hatred and rage. It does bring up the topic of needing to work with handling other people's anger better. That is something I need to give up to the divine to work on. I don't know how I am supposed to deal with it, or what someone who handles it well looks like. Maybe that is what I should pray for. A good model of how to deal with the anger of people who can hurt me if they so choose. Or maybe it is simply understanding that anger doesn't necessarily mean violence toward me. That is all I can focus on when people are angry around me, is that they are going to lose control and hurt me, and I won't see it coming until it is too late. Ah...very much a result of what happened to me as a kid. This is a kids fear. Something to think about and meditate on today in my quiet times.
MOTIVATION:
My motivation today came at 1:30am. I woke up out of a sound sleep with a better model for reservoir flow and spent a good hour puttering around with math on a couple of blank pages. Now that is the motivation I want to continue to have. I would like to have someone to discuss these challenges with, who could help me over the rough patches and tell me if I am way off base. Something else to turn over to the divine and see what happens.
This is my first post as a 40 year old. WOW!!
I am in need of the reminder to meditate on divine love today. I got bitched out by my boyfriend's landlord about my cats. He said some pretty hateful things, so of which were true and some of which were not. Me and my cats didn't single-handedly cost him a tenant. Yes the litter box stinks and yes this is almost the end of the month and showing the place with the cats isn't the premium solution but I didn't plan spring break just to fuck him over as he so eloquently put it. So remembering that the divine loves me no matter what is helping to keep some kind of equilibrium in my head about this.
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning. Some little tweaking here and there. But I am thinking this is what would be perfect. Hopefully I am being specific enough and yet general enough as well. Setting goals is always dicey, you can meet your goal and still fall far short of what was in your head to begin with!
INVENTORY:
I think I actually did a pretty good job of sticking up for myself with the landlord yesterday even in the face of a pretty brutal attack. Today I took steps to rectify the situation as best I can with my cats still down here for another day. I truly feel like I have handled the situation as well as I could have. Other than coming up with something witty and appropriate to say in the face of that hatred and rage. It does bring up the topic of needing to work with handling other people's anger better. That is something I need to give up to the divine to work on. I don't know how I am supposed to deal with it, or what someone who handles it well looks like. Maybe that is what I should pray for. A good model of how to deal with the anger of people who can hurt me if they so choose. Or maybe it is simply understanding that anger doesn't necessarily mean violence toward me. That is all I can focus on when people are angry around me, is that they are going to lose control and hurt me, and I won't see it coming until it is too late. Ah...very much a result of what happened to me as a kid. This is a kids fear. Something to think about and meditate on today in my quiet times.
MOTIVATION:
My motivation today came at 1:30am. I woke up out of a sound sleep with a better model for reservoir flow and spent a good hour puttering around with math on a couple of blank pages. Now that is the motivation I want to continue to have. I would like to have someone to discuss these challenges with, who could help me over the rough patches and tell me if I am way off base. Something else to turn over to the divine and see what happens.
This is my first post as a 40 year old. WOW!!
Monday, April 18, 2011
18 April 2011
LOVE:
The more I focus on love the more I have to give. That is such a dichotomy in my head. It doesn't seem like it should or could work that way. But it is true! When I am filled with love I have more than enough to give. It is a beautiful thing to be in control of!
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning. This is gonna stick for a while I think!
INVENTORY:
I didn't do much yesterday and am not planning on doing a whole lot today, but I am enjoying the break before my birthday tomorrow. It is nice to be able to get some downtime and enjoy the break! I did get my resume to the PETE department as requested so it isn't like I haven't done anything, but I am still taking it easy!
So I am still struggling with how to reframe my fear of going homeless and jobless forever and ever into something less scary, but I am having trouble so I am going to turn that one over to the divine and ask them for help with the solution. That is one of my main "attachment" points and I need to be able to give that up in order to achieve my goal! The goal isn't saving lives for one company but saving lives in general! So this is one "attachment" which isn't serving my higher goal!
MOTIVATION:
By saving lives I will be an inspiration to others to achieve the same. I want to be the driver of safer practices!
The more I focus on love the more I have to give. That is such a dichotomy in my head. It doesn't seem like it should or could work that way. But it is true! When I am filled with love I have more than enough to give. It is a beautiful thing to be in control of!
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning. This is gonna stick for a while I think!
INVENTORY:
I didn't do much yesterday and am not planning on doing a whole lot today, but I am enjoying the break before my birthday tomorrow. It is nice to be able to get some downtime and enjoy the break! I did get my resume to the PETE department as requested so it isn't like I haven't done anything, but I am still taking it easy!
So I am still struggling with how to reframe my fear of going homeless and jobless forever and ever into something less scary, but I am having trouble so I am going to turn that one over to the divine and ask them for help with the solution. That is one of my main "attachment" points and I need to be able to give that up in order to achieve my goal! The goal isn't saving lives for one company but saving lives in general! So this is one "attachment" which isn't serving my higher goal!
MOTIVATION:
By saving lives I will be an inspiration to others to achieve the same. I want to be the driver of safer practices!
Saturday, April 16, 2011
16 April 2011
LOVE:
Thinking about love last night, I realized that the more I give love the more I have to give. It is a totally weird dichotomy that this is true. But I am reminded again and again that it is true! Finding someone to love isn't about going out and looking for love it is about filling yourself with love so someone is drawn to you. That is something that I must keep remembering.
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning. Yep that is a worthy goal...that is something I can get behind and be excited to go to work every day!
INVENTORY:
Self care was good yesterday, I took an exam in the morning and got done around noon and instead of heading directly in to school I took the time to get some lunch. That is moving me in the right direction.
MOTIVATION:
Just putting the goal up there gives me butterflies, the desire to do more at every opportunity will be easy in that situation! Here we go!!! Lets see where the adventure begins!!
Thinking about love last night, I realized that the more I give love the more I have to give. It is a totally weird dichotomy that this is true. But I am reminded again and again that it is true! Finding someone to love isn't about going out and looking for love it is about filling yourself with love so someone is drawn to you. That is something that I must keep remembering.
GOAL:
I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning. Yep that is a worthy goal...that is something I can get behind and be excited to go to work every day!
INVENTORY:
Self care was good yesterday, I took an exam in the morning and got done around noon and instead of heading directly in to school I took the time to get some lunch. That is moving me in the right direction.
MOTIVATION:
Just putting the goal up there gives me butterflies, the desire to do more at every opportunity will be easy in that situation! Here we go!!! Lets see where the adventure begins!!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
14 April 2011
LOVE: Finding love today has been a challenge. Self love that is!
GOAL: Employed saving lives thru resilience engineering in a major oil and gas company!
INVENTORY: Self care slipped today as I was stessing too much about my exam...with cause but I don't think the worry helped at all! Giving up needless worry to the divine works for me!!
MOTIVATION: I want to be an inspiration to others around me...I want to excel at inspiring other people! That motivates me!
GOAL: Employed saving lives thru resilience engineering in a major oil and gas company!
INVENTORY: Self care slipped today as I was stessing too much about my exam...with cause but I don't think the worry helped at all! Giving up needless worry to the divine works for me!!
MOTIVATION: I want to be an inspiration to others around me...I want to excel at inspiring other people! That motivates me!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
13 April 2011
I am having a bit of a crisis of conscience at the moment. The realization hit me yesterday and I meditated on it this morning that if I pursue my path of saving lives through better engineering design and using the human factors ideas, I am not sure how much traction I am going to get within the Petroleum industry. And if I can't get traction can I actually get a job doing this. This is part of the meditation and staying focused on the goal and not the issues which come up, but it is really tough when my fear of being homeless and unemployed and unemployable is causing all kinds of sticking points.
LOVE:
The divine loves me and will love me no matter what I do. It is my choice to trust in that love and trust that my best outcome is in their hands. I do what I can do and they will reach the rest of the way to help me. I have to trust that!
GOAL:
For the moment the goal remains the same. Although I do need/want to add something about resilience engineering. This idea that you can't predict how humans will fail, but you can design your system to be as resilient as possible and trust that no matter how humans "mismanage the systems into catastrophic failure" the system will be resilient enough to handle the mismanagement!
INVENTORY:
My inventory today is not trusting enough that my passion and energy is enough to see me gainfully employed before I graduate, so I have a job to jump into as soon as my thesis is done! I am going to turn this over. I can't seem to get the trusting the divine part down. It trips me up again and again.
MOTIVATION:
I am writing this post instead of studying for an exam because the studying is pissing me off and pointing out how much I don't know and how much I am not getting taught. It really does get on my nerves and I end up feeling very stupid. Ah, something else (a digression) to turn over. My feeling stupid if I don't understand something immediately. And then the habit I have of berating myself about how stupid I am instead of focusing on how to learn the material. Oh yeah, that is a good one to turn over.
Ok, motivation, I am highly motivated to learn new things and learn about risk avoidance, risk mitigation and post accident recovery! That has been a staple for years, why am I thinking that will change! Ok, off to teach myself about hydraulic fracturing.
LOVE:
The divine loves me and will love me no matter what I do. It is my choice to trust in that love and trust that my best outcome is in their hands. I do what I can do and they will reach the rest of the way to help me. I have to trust that!
GOAL:
For the moment the goal remains the same. Although I do need/want to add something about resilience engineering. This idea that you can't predict how humans will fail, but you can design your system to be as resilient as possible and trust that no matter how humans "mismanage the systems into catastrophic failure" the system will be resilient enough to handle the mismanagement!
INVENTORY:
My inventory today is not trusting enough that my passion and energy is enough to see me gainfully employed before I graduate, so I have a job to jump into as soon as my thesis is done! I am going to turn this over. I can't seem to get the trusting the divine part down. It trips me up again and again.
MOTIVATION:
I am writing this post instead of studying for an exam because the studying is pissing me off and pointing out how much I don't know and how much I am not getting taught. It really does get on my nerves and I end up feeling very stupid. Ah, something else (a digression) to turn over. My feeling stupid if I don't understand something immediately. And then the habit I have of berating myself about how stupid I am instead of focusing on how to learn the material. Oh yeah, that is a good one to turn over.
Ok, motivation, I am highly motivated to learn new things and learn about risk avoidance, risk mitigation and post accident recovery! That has been a staple for years, why am I thinking that will change! Ok, off to teach myself about hydraulic fracturing.
Monday, April 11, 2011
11 April 2011
Yesterday driving to Galveston on I-10 I very nearly lost my life. A Jeep driving Eastbound lost control and veered across both Eastbound lanes and slammed into the median divider (short 3 wire divider) flipped up and over the median and flipped again into my lane (Westbound fast lane) and would have landed on top of my car (going 80 mph). I was able to get into the slow land but not before several parts from the vehicle hit my car, nicking the paint and cracking the front window. I drove on for about 5 seconds then I pulled over, that is when the reaction set in. I called 911 and saw the occupants of the Jeep get out of their car, I sat for a further 5 minutes allowing myself time to recover.
I first saw the Jeep in the Eastbound lanes and noticed it was sideways in the lanes, I saw it was heading toward the median and figured the barrier would stop the vehicle from coming into the Westbound lanes of traffic. When I realized the barrier was not going to stop the vehicle I did a quick calculation in my head that the trajectory of the vehicle was going to put it on top of me. At that point I braked hard and got behind the 18 wheeler who was in the slow lane and prepared to swerve out of my lane, by this time I was very unsure if I was going to have enough time to get clear of the 18 wheeler before the Jeep impacted me. Thankfully, with seconds to spare I was able to clear the 18 wheeler and swerve around the Jeep.
Once I got to Galveston I proceeded to get very drunk! When I sobered up at 2am I started going through my meditations...
LOVE:
The first thing I realized is that the divine has a plan for me. At the very least I have every reason to be thankful for my belief in them as it saw me through the accident. The feeling of unending divine love is such a comfort to me.
GOAL:
When I started thinking about my career goal of saving lives I realized I had been handed a beautiful opening for any talk I give on safety. Accidents happen all the time but the different outcomes are a result of prior plans. I always drive with open space around me. The 18 wheeler not withstanding, I had a good bit of clear space around me which gave me options when the time came.
I was most definitely not on autopilot in the midst of the accident but I also was not aware of anything other than the Jeep and the 18 wheeler. I don't know what the cars behind me were doing, I don't know what my passenger was doing and I don't know what the status of my car was. Had my car failed to operate in the expected manner at the critical moment the outcome could have been very different.
There are still things I think I can learn from this accident that will help me reach my career goals, but that will have to wait for another time.
INVENTORY:
While going out and getting really, really drunk was not my plan it is what happened and while it wasn't particularly a plan it didn't impact my long term career goals, it did disrupt my short term plans for the evening. Which I would like to not have happen again soon! Something to work on and ask the divine for some assistance there. I made better food choices yesterday and for that I am grateful! It is still something I want to focus on.
MOTIVATION:
Realizing how accidents impact me and what impact my death or my injury could have had on friends and family I am even more committed to making this goal of saving lives happen. Zero accidents isn't possible, but I do think accidents which end up with less sever consequences is possible. And that is a goal worth working for with all my heart and soul!
"I save lives and property through solid design engineering principles and a core understanding of human nature. I educate others about saving lives and property while setting the goal of accidents with minimum consequences."
I first saw the Jeep in the Eastbound lanes and noticed it was sideways in the lanes, I saw it was heading toward the median and figured the barrier would stop the vehicle from coming into the Westbound lanes of traffic. When I realized the barrier was not going to stop the vehicle I did a quick calculation in my head that the trajectory of the vehicle was going to put it on top of me. At that point I braked hard and got behind the 18 wheeler who was in the slow lane and prepared to swerve out of my lane, by this time I was very unsure if I was going to have enough time to get clear of the 18 wheeler before the Jeep impacted me. Thankfully, with seconds to spare I was able to clear the 18 wheeler and swerve around the Jeep.
Once I got to Galveston I proceeded to get very drunk! When I sobered up at 2am I started going through my meditations...
LOVE:
The first thing I realized is that the divine has a plan for me. At the very least I have every reason to be thankful for my belief in them as it saw me through the accident. The feeling of unending divine love is such a comfort to me.
GOAL:
When I started thinking about my career goal of saving lives I realized I had been handed a beautiful opening for any talk I give on safety. Accidents happen all the time but the different outcomes are a result of prior plans. I always drive with open space around me. The 18 wheeler not withstanding, I had a good bit of clear space around me which gave me options when the time came.
I was most definitely not on autopilot in the midst of the accident but I also was not aware of anything other than the Jeep and the 18 wheeler. I don't know what the cars behind me were doing, I don't know what my passenger was doing and I don't know what the status of my car was. Had my car failed to operate in the expected manner at the critical moment the outcome could have been very different.
There are still things I think I can learn from this accident that will help me reach my career goals, but that will have to wait for another time.
INVENTORY:
While going out and getting really, really drunk was not my plan it is what happened and while it wasn't particularly a plan it didn't impact my long term career goals, it did disrupt my short term plans for the evening. Which I would like to not have happen again soon! Something to work on and ask the divine for some assistance there. I made better food choices yesterday and for that I am grateful! It is still something I want to focus on.
MOTIVATION:
Realizing how accidents impact me and what impact my death or my injury could have had on friends and family I am even more committed to making this goal of saving lives happen. Zero accidents isn't possible, but I do think accidents which end up with less sever consequences is possible. And that is a goal worth working for with all my heart and soul!
"I save lives and property through solid design engineering principles and a core understanding of human nature. I educate others about saving lives and property while setting the goal of accidents with minimum consequences."
Sunday, April 10, 2011
10 April 2011
I didn't make time today when I got up, as I was on the computer getting ready to head to Galveston before my coffee was ready. During the drive to Galveston I will have some down time to think about this. So I will post something later on today.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
9 April 2011
LOVE:
The divine created all energy. My choice today is to facilitate positive energy transference or negative energy transference by my dealings with the people I interact with today. The god and goddess love me unconditionally and support my greatest efforts and my simplest ones. And I get to define which are the greatest ones and which are the simple ones!
GOAL:
I save lives and property through solid design engineering principles and a core understanding of human nature. I teach others to save lives and property while setting realistic goals about safety and incident reduction.
INVENTORY:
My moral inventory is about turning over to the god and goddess my self destructive tendencies around my diet and exercise. I recognize that this is holding me back and I also realize that I am powerless to fix the issue myself. I need their help.
MOTIVATION:
Today my motivation is to focus on learning more so I can save more lives!
The divine created all energy. My choice today is to facilitate positive energy transference or negative energy transference by my dealings with the people I interact with today. The god and goddess love me unconditionally and support my greatest efforts and my simplest ones. And I get to define which are the greatest ones and which are the simple ones!
GOAL:
I save lives and property through solid design engineering principles and a core understanding of human nature. I teach others to save lives and property while setting realistic goals about safety and incident reduction.
INVENTORY:
My moral inventory is about turning over to the god and goddess my self destructive tendencies around my diet and exercise. I recognize that this is holding me back and I also realize that I am powerless to fix the issue myself. I need their help.
MOTIVATION:
Today my motivation is to focus on learning more so I can save more lives!
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