26 April 2011

LOVE:

Being able to lean on the support of the divine is so very helpful because it takes a huge burden off of my chest that I have to be my own cheerleader because no one else will. I know I have divine cheerleaders and they are always there for me. They always see the best me. They know my strengths and weaknesses and love me anyway. They see me clearly when I don't see myself clearly!

GOAL:

I think I need to start including some personal goals as well as career goals in this section. I finally finished the book today and part of the goal section is no only career goals, although that was the focus of a book on leadership, but without personal goals part of my life is stagnant. So career wise by August 2011 I am employed full time based out of New Orleans working in the oil and gas sector helping to save lives by engineering safer systems, through reliability engineering! With a supportive boss and an environment which promotes continual learning.

Personal wise: I am already doing this to some extent in my inventory. But personally, I am an inspiration to those around me to be the best they can be. I don't care if they are teachers, bosses, children, friends or enemies. I inspire everyone around me to be better today than they were yesterday.

INVENTORY:

Inventory time. Actually this is more about a realization. One of many today, but this one happened most recently so I am going to get it down on "paper". I talked yesterday about setting goals an then not presupposing the outcome. Well as a correlary to that the realization is that I don't see myself as successful or as a winner. I consider my success or failure against a perfect me. And of course when you do that you never achieve it, so you can never be a winner or successful. So the challenge is to reframe success and failure. I do this again and again and always forget it. Here is the issue I have. If you judge your successes or failures against what your best effort is which is what I hear often, then you will always come up short, because my best effort is that perfect me. So, in the scope of the gym I have to ask myself did I move toward my goals (personal, physical, spiritual, career, love, etc) or away from them. If I moved toward them then I have been a success today. I was a winner today. But my sticking point with that is that most days I will be a winner and that just doesn't make sense in my head. Winning and success are things that happen once or if you are lucky twice a year. Not something that happens 5-6 times a week. OK, for this one I know what to do. I need to turn this belief over to the divine. This idea that success is something that happens every day. This is the reality of life, not the messed up world I live in.

MOTIVATION:

The two goals dovetail (in my head anyway) into each other and be an inspiration is all I want to be. If I have done that, then I am going above and beyond and achieving beyond expectation!